This past week I had to make many decisions. I had to let go of a few things in my life to make way for others. I always thought this one thing was too important for me to let go of. I still wanted to hang onto a tiny part of it but God came and said “No. This is not your priority.”
My heart was broken, especially when it seemed to cost me a treasured friendship. Then I realized that this was exactly what I asked for. I had never been able to put my own health and happiness first and sometimes just say no to others. If someone even hinted at how I could help them with something, I would push aside whatever I was working on and put them first. But this caused me stress as I was constantly working on other people’s agendas, without considering how it was influencing my own to-do list. So I had been trying to learn to say no, and I finally did it! But it still was not easy.
However, if something is right, you will always find peace about it. Whether it is someone saying something to you or sending you a message, unbeknownst to them they may be giving you just the right word for the right time. And that is what Carthage Buckley did for me last night. We are connected on Twitter and he posted a link to his article, Are You Responsible for Your Life? As I read the following story from his article, there my answer was!
The Disabled Fox
A man walking through the forest noticed a fox that had lost its legs and he wondered how it lived. Then he saw a tiger with game in his mouth. The tiger had his fill and left the remainder of the meat for the fox.
The next day God fed the fox by means of the same tiger. The man began to wonder at God’s greatness and said to himself “I too shall just rest in the corner with full trust in the Lord and He will provide me with all I need.”
He did this for many days and nothing happened. He was almost at death’s door when he heard a voice say, “O you who are in the path of error, open your eyes to the truth! Follow the example of the tiger and stop imitating the disabled fox.”
I know that there are many similar stories but last night this was what I needed to give me back my peace. God does not expect me to sit and do nothing and run other people’s agendas in order to be doing what I was put on this earth to do. We need to do what is right, even if it does not suit other people. Because at the end of the day, we need to take responsibility for our own lives.